I said this to my daughter, which brought a look of… confusion. A ‘what does he mean by that’ look.

“It means.” I told her. “Dogs that are sleeping are more unpredictable if woken up suddenly. And if something is not causing a problem for you, then probably not a great idea to bring it up or remind the person who might be bothered by whatever it is you bring up.”

A social worker of my daughter who was removed from having anything to do with my kid and told to stay away decided to not mind her own business just woke up the Dog.

Everyone involved will be more educated when this one drifts back to slumber…

Next week I’ll tell her about not playing with the Bull!!

The Edges lifted slowly.

Saw something in their eyes.

They were choosing words so carefully.

Building manufactured lies.

I was less than loose and goosy.

And more than just a breeze.

I was feeling cruel and dangerous.

With a glare not meant to please.

They were nervous from the get go.

I was feeling filthy right.

And left them in their misery.

To contemplate their plight.

Watching behavior that defies all logic from people in professional positions, requires the ability to look outside the box and investigate the possibilities of addiction issues or a psychotic break… in my humble opinion; and the possibility exists that there is nothing humble about me.

My initial reaction is anger and although understandable, I have now at least begun to try to reframe a situation into:

‘Is this a cry for help?’

My daughters school counselor was removed from counseling my daughter with the agreement that she has been replaced from these duties and will have nothing to do with my daughter going forward…

YET!

Yesterday she talked to my daughters teacher who knew nothing about the agreement that the counselor was to have nothing to do with my daughter, and was asking questions and offering her professional advice.

The fact that my daughter reported physical abuse to this counselor and she did not report this abuse and did nothing other than protect the adult parent abuser is at the forefront of her being from having anything to do with my girl.

Why would someone do that when for a year she’s had no contact? Did she forget that she had a meeting with me, her supervisor, and the principal to inform her that she was to cease having anything to do with my child?

Or has she heard from another student that my daughter has said something negative about ‘That B%#ch Counselor’ towards other children she is counseling. My theory is yes!

All Is Fair in love and war.

They want less when less is more.

They spread disease and hide the cure.

And love of self is first for sure.

Got old and stooped in quiet greys.

And rough and edged and set in ways.

Sometimes I dream, can’t find the door.

All Is Fair in love and war.

It’s been a long time since I had a new mentor…

They don’t last as long as they used to but the benefits are still the same.

“Don’t be afraid to be yourself!” She wrote.

It all happened online, but most things do these days.

I don’t care how much money people are making on cryptocurrency! I want nothing to do with it.

I’m back meditating again which can only be good for me.

I’m of the group of people who benefits from meditation the most. The small group who’s right side of our brains doesn’t communicate well with the left side. You know this is true from making plans that are never realized and reacting emotionally to conflict…

The world is safe again!

I’m in love with a Crpto Girl, she’s from Singapore and Hong Kong.

Making large on investments now, I will see her, won’t be long.

I’m in love with a Crypto Girl, from Hong Kong and Singapore.

We are making bank and large and there might be something more.

I met Maggie on the online, she was living in San Fran.

I got a taste for Asian; and I just do the best I can.

I met Julie on the Facebook she’s in Miami F-L-A.

I asked if we could have a video chat and she just kinda went away.

I’m not saying that they’re imposters. No I am not that rude.

The thought did cross my mind last night, AM I talking to a dude?

I’m in love with a Crypto Girl, she’s from Singapore and Hong Kong.

She is living in with the valley girls in a land that’s gone quite wrong.

I’m in love with a Crypto Girl, she’s from Hong Kong and Singapore.

We are making bank and large and there might be something more.

Today I am meditating on my IMPATIENCE.

Why is probably not important. I am.

Bodies have been strewn in the wake of my past impatient moments and to those I offer my condolences. You poor bastards!!

My awareness is being raised and I am now a vehicle of change. Look out! A brand new version of yours truly is about to be unleashed and when that happens…

I don’t know, but change is coming. I have a new teacher and her name is Maggie.

The first Love is the naive Love. In which you get hurt because the person we are with could never live up to your grand idealistic expectations. This may be the true Love.

The second Love. Is the ego Love and this is one where we learn the lessons from the first one and make demands to ensure whomever we’re with in this relationship knows the pain we experienced in the first Love and there will be hell to pay.

The third Love is where we learn to put up healthy boundaries and become less demanding. This is the last Love and the one with the greatest chance of success.

Whatever the hell that is.

It’s been almost a year since the stress left. After a decade of daily insanity… There’s an Adjustment period.

You don’t just come out of the Trauma without certain tics and twitches; expectations of the next bomb.

My therapist warned me that the time of doing nothing except Adjusting to normal from trauma, as being necessary.

The writing has helped.

Thank you all for listening!

I’m ready now.

I met Wendy online. She is brave and she is bold. Not like Batman in a mini, left me standing in the cold.

Wendy loves my intellect, says she wants to shave my balls. And not a moments hesitation. I’ll be taking all Wendy’s calls. There’s a shift in something somewhere. That time that push has come to shove. I’m not hearing the others calling. Cause I’m drunk on Wendy’s love.

I’m standing in the fog here. Here huddled in the rain. Feeling warm and fuzzy. I got Wendy on the brain.

Wendy loves my intellect, says she wants to shave my balls. And not a moments hesitation. I’ll be taking all Wendy’s calls. There’s a shift in something somewhere. That time where push has come to shove. I’m not hearing the others calling. Cause I’m down for Wendy’s love.

Now I have not met Wendy. In the person face to face. In the shadows brave and many. In this darkness; human race.

Wendy loves my intellect. Says she wants to shave my balls. And not a moments hesitation. I’ll be taking Wendy’s calls. There’s a shift in something somewhere… A time that push has come to shove. I don’t hear the others calling, because I’m into Wendy’s Love.

Dennis Mantin