It landed there years ago, swam and settled, made a home, raised a family and you weren’t there, just your words, festering, staining, rotting, being you…
You were young and stupid, some claimed evil, but that I doubt as you were not that smart ; I just gave you too much power at the time because I was needy.
I wish I could have been your older brother and not your younger one, because you could have used the guidance… We said goodbye long ago .
Dennis Mantin
She’s tired beyond crazy She’s lost that gently touch I loved her for her beauty but now it’s not so much…
She’s tired beyond crazy Fighting monsters of goodbye That everyone she’s loved and lived Like her are going to die.
I’ve been less than careful I’ve been more than sure I’ve been feeling kinda special I’ve consulted with the poor.
She’s tired beyond crazy She’s got that will to stay Can anything be that heavy? And not get in the way?
She’s talking now to spirit’s She’s counting out the time She’s more alone than lonely She was a friend of mine.
Dennis Mantin
Much ado about something
Shit or get off the pot
This pantomime of song and dance
I fear is all for not.
They say it’s rags to riches
Looks like minutes of fame
If I don’t die of laughter
In this rigmarole of shame.
They say it’s now or never
I’d say “Shut up, be still.”
If you haven’t learned to listen by now
Then…
I’m sure you never will.
Dennis Mantin
She’s going crazy, she’s slipped again… The Morning ride is all distain… Hanging heads are dodging pain Mumbling words about tears in rain
I’ve seen them all the crazy walks The used to be’s and big time talks Big time Charlie’s are cleaning clocks And crashed ashore on splintered rocks.
The tough as nails working Mom Lost in thought of where she’s from A strangers promise that didn’t come She’s heard it all, the words of some
Morning Train or rocking seas I close my eyes and watch time freeze A whispered love in swaying trees. I miss my Mom on bended knees.
Dennis Mantin
I said I wanted her forgiveness
I just didn’t know what for
I meant I wanted her to love me
That’s when she showed me the door
Dennis Mantin
I left the shore so long ago
I wanted more a need to know
Instructions clear and waters deep
Sink or swim and be discreet.
Dennis Mantin
It’s clear to me I would do almost anything for her and she’s 6 and wants a farm.
I was 6 almost 7, when I moved to the farm with my mother.
I left the farm 5 years later while she left the planet.
I’m trying to break a pattern here while giving her what she wants. History doesn’t have to repeat itself, does it?
We didn’t move to the farm when I was a kid to make my dreams a reality; twas a matter of survival I suspect.
I suspect I will survive to retire to the farm… She’ll need that address to visit me by then.
Dennis Mantin
She wasn’t according to her, always the antagonist… I created her with kindness and generosity fueled by fear.
Oh the follies of youth!
I created my own monster!
Dennis Mantin
All children seek attention and affection… If they fail to get attention and affection and instead receive distain and contempt, then those children grow up damaged.
It isn’t completely that they fail to get their needs met that’s the problem… It’s the humiliation and lack of trust that comes with this type of rejection that’s the icing on this shitty cake.
I’ve seen them on the streets for decades…
Dennis Mantin
As children we are dominated by desires for ATTENTION and AFFECTION.
The basic problem with humanity is as children we get either too much or too little of this attention and affection.
When we are children we are VICTIMS. When we are adults, we are VOLUNTEERS.
As adults if we recognize that a behavior is wrong… The recommended action is to stop that action, and forgive yourself for being human.
Forgiveness and compassion of self is the greatest of gifts.
If we treated other people the way we treat ourselves we probably would have no friends.
Dennis Mantin
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