I quit drinking.
It lasted 4 years from 1990-1994
One week in I realized that I didn’t know anyone outside of bars.
That’s when I began to paint.
Never once did I think of myself as an alcoholic because I could quit whenever I wanted for months and years.
I would work for 8 hours a day paint for 8, and sleep for 8.
4 years of no drinking and celibacy. It couldn’t last.
When I finally reached the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous in the early 2000’s I found out I was a binge drinker.
I could stop. But once I started, I wouldn’t stop until everything was gone.
I also learned I wasn’t good at relationships mainly because I’d never seen a successful one.
My education began here…
So much to learn.
Still time to learn.
I sometimes think about who I left behind; however not for long and it is getting less often.