Order and chaos. Chaos and Order.
I loathed order in my youth, and embraced the insanity of the unknown.
The bits in the middle were messy and stained with moments of creative spark that made the alternative bearable.
I love and crave order now, demand it really. I require that peace of mind and am addicted to that serotonin bath.
I was without balance and guidance and don’t recommend my path, however I regret little and am happy with where I’ve arrived.