I’ve seen it in myself and I have seen it in others.

Ray Rachford was the first to point it out. Ray said to me, “You’re addicted to chaos.”

I didn’t know what he meant.

He continued, “Anyone who grew up in a chaotic home can’t deal with calm and quiet.”

I really sat down and looked at that.

He was right.

I had zero self awareness.

Step 1 in anything is awareness.

Now I knew.

If things were going to change I had to change me. I knew nothing and I was 42.

Sobering.

I thought I had forever. I just couldn’t be more wrong.

To have something move so quickly. Like; to be there and not belong.

So much seemed unimportant. Like a stranger passing through.

It all got my attention. When there was no more you.

Every second that would pass on by. Moved me further from the past.

The Madness was in holding on. Tried so hard to make it last.

But I was just a kid you know. And you were just my Mom.

And my daughter talks about you now; And she knows where you come from.

There are mysteries in living. There is life and there is pain

And there is love and given half a chance; I’d do it all again.

I grew tired of the Politics…

But at least it wasn’t war.

Between the talking and the nodding.

There was the snoozing and a snore.

I grew tired of the sports talk.

And the money for the stars.

It all seemed so damn important.

For the stool sitters at the bars.

I grew tired of the drinking.

Because of where my mind would go.

And all the chitter-chatter.

And the fires down below.

I grew tired of the dramas.

To have anyone around.

I’m a Hermit on this island.

In this Urban sprawl of sound.

The cold is blue and choppy.

White is coming from the north.

My friends are all with someone else.

We take it back and forth.

They are planning for big futures.

Where big dreams can come true.

But there’s a lineup at the checkout.

Where impatience quickly grew.

There is haze on that horizon.

And the sun is getting high.

I think I’ll have myself a nap.

Before I say goodbye.

Being made to flee …

Taking what you can carry.

Praying for mercy!

Hoping to escape with your life and your children…

The Horror

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again…

There are 3 things we must get into balance:

Sleep, work and play.

There are 3 principles that we should prioritize above everything else:

Spiritual, Physical/Emotional and Financial.

I have heard people say who are far wiser than me, that anything we put ahead of spiritual… we will lose.

I believe I have perfected this art and I also believe it is good for the soul…

I believe this due to the number of people who seemingly lose their minds when I am engaged in this worthwhile endeavor.

The warm air will arrive today.

A Special package from the South.

The complaints will go on silent mode.

Recalibrations of the month.

Neither one will last to long.

So you won’t have much to fear.

Nothing but complaints and weather.

Have lasted long around here.

Thanks to Jordan Peterson and the YouTube format I have been informed that the Nobel Prize Winner Alexander Solzhenitsyn said in his acceptance speech for his literary prize:

“A single person who stops lying can bring down a tyranny.”

Quite a statement…

The following was overhead at my Coffee Shop today…

“Why the long face?”

“Just dealing with ‘bad neighbors.’

“Sorry to hear that.”

“You ever had bad neighbors?”

“I have bad neighbors.”

“How do you deal with them?”

“I just get in their face and tell them that if they’re looking for trouble… Congratulations, you’ve arrived.”