It got cold here first of December.

And all the crazy got fresh leased.

The cops got called at Timothy’s.

What will be the first of many…

It’s either famine, fast, or feast.

I really liked last November.

Finally got married for just a song.

We were humming some were smiling.

What will be the first of many.

Just don’t keep it up too long.

Christmas, New Years Twenty Twenty Five.

And all that happy sure will fade.

I’ve learned to harbor expectations.

In what will be the last of many.

Not all songs wrote and played.

Taking a break from writing and being every thought.

Or search for the meaning of living with this lot.

It’s November cold and blowing, sleeping in till afternoon.

I’ve been changing and arriving late howling at the moon.

I got married all this beauty. I no longer am alone.

There is something in the heavens that we can’t reach by phone.

Dennis Mantin

The Doomed do not carry such burdens as the immortals.

Any moment could be our last.

This is where the beauty lives.

On this edge…

This is to be envied.

This is life.

I have never thought about this before yesterday. It came to me via the internet, so already I’m skeptical.

However, happiness is not something I ever really thought I deserved, so I have always un consciously unconditionally pushed it away and those who brought it away.

Happiness is long-term and comes from giving and caring about someone besides yourself.

Pleasure is a short-term selfish and self-centered manner that eventually leads to addiction in many/most/all/me.

Now I know.

My perspective has changed.

You?

I’m not sure.

I asked my kid,

“Why are you so angry at me?”

Tears welled up, which are unusual for her. My little girl suffered in silence, and now, not so little has told me why she’s been so angry. She feels I could have done a better job at protecting her from her abuser.

Now she understands that short of taking a life; I did all I could do. We have had it out, and things feel normal for the first time in a while. Kids /people don’t always know what reality happened, and if they don’t get answers, they create myth…

People need information and answers.