I’ve seen it in myself and I have seen it in others.

Ray Rachford was the first to point it out. Ray said to me, “You’re addicted to chaos.”

I didn’t know what he meant.

He continued, “Anyone who grew up in a chaotic home can’t deal with calm and quiet.”

I really sat down and looked at that.

He was right.

I had zero self awareness.

Step 1 in anything is awareness.

Now I knew.

If things were going to change I had to change me. I knew nothing and I was 42.

Sobering.